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From: [email protected]
Category: Category 1
Date: 04 Aug 1999
Time: 15:35:25
Remote Name: ip1.atlanta15.ga.pub-ip.psi.net
Dear Fellow Members,
I just got in from a week in Florida. Outside of having a wonderful time with wonderful people, I face the 'catch-up' tasks of voice mail and email. I have to find and resume the things I was working on before. Getting off target is painful to me. It makes me feel like I am letting someone down. The truth is, I just go through this everytime I interrupt my work for any reason.
Now, the input to the new Book of Changes is this: that is is healthy and normal to go through these feelings. They are the exact correct feelings to move my ass and get me rolling again on what I 'do'. I had to be clean a while and work painstakingly on my steps to find this simple truth. I feel for people who have feelings such as mine and have no one to tell them it is OK, that they should just persist a little to set things right and get going again. Change involves our interface with reality and we have to be able to tune in with our conscious minds if we are going to be effective. The feelings of disorientation and discomfort that come with 'changes' can become feelings we know and no longer fear. We behaved our way into the traps of addiction and we can get out by surviving the feelings again, this time moving back towards acting in accord with what we choose.
Getting our lives back is no simple matter. Like a chiropractor works with bones that have become accustomed to being out of place, we have to re-set our feelings, so that they match up for the best movement and don't restrict the flow of energy through our nerves to fire our muscles and accurately inform us as to what is going on. Getting real information on what is happening and using our resources, mental and spiritual, to work out what we want to do, we get back into doing what we care about with our lives. This is what freedom and happiness is all about.
In Loving Recovery,
Bo S.