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From: Lori B.
Category: Category 1
Date: 21 Mar 2000
Time: 11:30:23
Remote Name: spider-wa053.proxy.aol.com
After 8 years in recovery,I relapsed when my partner chose to pick up and I myself felt very abandoned by the local fellowship.Today I am leaving that same person once again ,altho this time I don't want to use no matter what.Being to frightened to do anything different,I am now relying on the basics that this program has taught me,I'm staying real close to positive people in the rooms expecially women,calling my sponsor,praying alot and sharing my pain in meetings ,reaching out no matter how frightened I may become.I am much to frightened to do any thing else .I relapsed with 8 years and too much knowlege about N.A.for it not to be a greater horror than before I ever heard of this fellowship.and my fear of living in that hell again motivates me on alot of days to do any and everything that will help me get through the tough time without getting high.I never want to live in that desperate place again and learn the all to hard lesson that if I don't make major changes in me that I will break everytime the wind blows to hard.Thank you N.A.and my Hp for giving me a life I want to live today and teaching me that I'm worthy of being happy,joyous and free today,Ya'll have saved me from the horrors of addiction many times and I will be forever grateful....