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From: [email protected]
Category: Category 1
Date: 23 Oct 2001
Time: 16:18:20
Remote Name: host-216-78-23-65.cae.bellsouth.net
This is a poem I wrote about me and youth in recovery. Let me know what you think. Leah S. 2-2-01 (almost there!)
NOT EVEN LEGAL
I WANTED TO BE ACCEPTED AND KNOWN AS VERY COOL I PARTIED WITH THE BEST OF THEM AND ACTED LIKE A FOOL
JUST ON THE WEEKENDS SOUNDED GREAT TO ME IF ONLY IT WAS THAT EASY IN N.A. I WOULD NOT BE
MY LIFE WAS A MESS NOTHING WAS GOING RIGHT ALL I DID WAS USE MORE DRUGS AND GET IN A MILLION FIGHTS
I DIDN’T HAVE ANY FAITH I THOUGHT THERE WAS NO HOPE BUT I KNEW THERE HAD TO BE MORE THAN JUST USING DOPE
I CAME TO THE ROOMS OF N.A. AT NINETEEN YEARS OF AGE WITH A GREAT DEAL OF FEAR NOT TO MENTION ALL THE RAGE
I THOUGHT I WAS TOO YOUNG TOTALLY TOO HARDCORE TO BE CLASSIFIED AS AN ADDICT AND FOR DRUGS TO WORK NO MORE
I DIDN’T RELATE TO EVERYTHING THERE WERE SOMETHINGS I DIDN’T DO BUT IF I HAD STAYED OUT LONGER I’M SURE I WOULD HAVE TOO
I FOUND SOME OTHER PEOPLE YOUNG AND STAYING CLEAN THAT HAD BEEN WHERE I’D BEEN AND SEEN WHAT I’D SEEN
RESERVATIONS I HAD ABOUT TURNING TWENTY-ONE TURNED INTO ANTICIPATION OF HAVING CLEAN OLE’ FUN
I WORK VERY HARD ON EVERY STEP I DO I HAVE A SPONSOR AND HOMEGROUP AND I DO SERVICE WORK TOO
I HAVE MY WHOLE LIFE TO LOOK FORWARD TO NOW WITH THE HELP OF MY HIGHER POWER AND SPONSOR TO SHOW ME HOW
SO WHEN A NEWCOMER COMES IN AND WANTS TO STAY OFF DRUGS I CAN OFFER MY EXPERIENCE AND A WHOLE LOT OF HUGS
I DON’T KNOW WHAT COMES NEXT I LIVE JUST FOR TODAY ALL I CAN DO IS STAY CLEAN, AND GET DOWN ON MY KNEES AND PRAY