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From: [email protected]
Category: Category 1
Date: 02 May 1999
Time: 23:57:40
Remote Name: atl2-wc1.atlas.digex.net
I was at a meeting earlier tonight where the topic was sponsorship. One addict helping another is without parallel and this is a subject I don't hear enough about. The strides that I see within this fellowship are remarkable considering I get feelings at times it doesn't get any better and it truly does. I know I had someone show me how to get high and now I need someone to show me how to stay clean by using the twelve steps and practice the traditions in all my affairs. This my seem like a big order but until I practice them they are. My sponsor gives direction in my life because I am so blind because of my self-cenetered core that i dopn't knoiw what is best for me. My wants blind me to my needs that I the experience of my sponsor to guide me in my decisions and not have a sponsor that makes decions for me. The love I have found with finally having a trusting relationship with someone that was the same sex and didn't want anything from me except to stay clean. I truly believe that one addict helping another without judgement is the roll of the sponsor and I need to remember that as a sponsee I have a responsiblity because sponsorship is a two-way street. My self-centeredness tells me that my sponsor should spend all their time with me and I forget that my sponsor has a life. It is time to responsible for me and allow other people in when my sponsor is living and doing what they have to do. I would not be here without NA which gave me the sponsor I have and the life I have. NA can survive without me but I could never survive without NA and the individual in me that says "Hello, I am Preston, and I am an addict." Thank You Preston