Traditions War: a pathway to peace

Chapter 6
History Movement starts in Madison,Alabama

Planners: Bill B. Ed C. and others from N. A. Area were main planners. Mainly to start Bill B. Ed C and Grover N. made the first three and then formed committee.

I have stated from the start and before that the transcripts should be in. Or published as a separate piece. Bo you and I can to the thought for the book on my drive home from Decatur via cell phone. I thank we talked from Florence to Little Rock and beyond.

We were later gifted with the title, but the book was born through that conversation.

I have gotten a little frustrated with the work due to the fact that I feel I feel I am repeating myself and repeating again. So I have felt discouraged. I have to work while inspired, to force it is not working.

There is confusion between Madison and Montgomery. I think some tapes were mislabeled.

Madison Was first, Bo, Joseph, Greg, Grateful, Ed were all there and panel speakers with Tully giving a great opening.

Montgomery, was Father Dan, Betty K, Bill Beck, Cindy D.

Donnie J. Was the chair and I was the Regional History Chair. Donnie had a full committee of great spirited members. My camera was not working for this one. I think I have three pics. Others have some.

This all started with my trip to see Ed C. We met in his home and talked, prayed and Then a trip to see Bill B in Decatur. Upon Bill's yeah vote we started. We went to a Convention in Ga. where we share our vision with Billy A. and others. Billy went home and put together Allen Town and held it prior to Madison. I feel and have always felt this was to upstage the event. I took one member and went to Allentown it was held at a beautiful College. It was small. Greg P and Grateful were there as well as Fawn.

I felt some pain from the upstaging but wrote it off to a start at least. Madison was held and went over great. I have, and have posted pics of the event. People were walking the floors in tears of gratitude and no one I talked to wanted it to end. Bill was the Chair and I took the co chair seat. Wanting to keep my ego out of it.

Montgomery was set at the next committee meeting and we had a ton of willing members. The Committee went to Regional Committee just before Madison Bill Served his term with much shit coming from a chosen few at the region. I took up the gauntlet. Montgomery we allowed Billy A to tape and video tape the speakers. There were interviews behind closed doors and the committee was shut out. We passed it off to anonymity and accepted it besides we would see the tapes and glean the information from them. The whole purpose anyway. We never got a copy of the video tapes. We asked repeatedly for them. TO this day we have not seen the tapes. Father Dan is now gone and Betty is much older. Who knows what golden nuggets they shared. We don't!

Now you combine all this shit, the shit from the Region or I should say one member of the Region and a couple from Florida. Bill B becoming dishearten, The letter from WSO about the Blue books. The lies from all about our intent. It makes me want to scream still. Fuck surrender people just need to grow the fuck up. Ok that is my short serenity prayer, now I feel better.

Florida has now produced a History book, the WSO now has a history display in the lobby I am told. You hardly have a  convention that there is not a history workshop, and we still don't have a fourth step as a fellowship done. It is easy to rewrite history. It is easy to dress it up and make it pretty. But people died behind the shit that went down and the fellowship of NA changed forever. So lets tell the truth backed up with the documentation. That was the intent from the beginning. Not to shade for political correctness, or to save someone's feelings. Searching and fearless. Black and white.

- Grover N. June 28, 2004

I. The inception

In order to share how the committee started you need to understand the why.

When I got clean treatment centers were flooding the rooms of NA. "People did not recover in NA alone" was the message; you had to go to AA in order to have long-term recovery. Going to AA meetings I heard them defend their message. Neal H. took me to many different meetings in NA, in many different towns, and I meet many new people that were recovering in NA alone. We always made at least one H&I meeting during the week. 90 in 90 was the official creed. Early on he directed me to a member that was doing H&I in a local prison. That meeting became my regular Tuesday night meeting for 5 years. Through active service, workshops and learning days I was able to meet BO S., Greg P. Motorcycle Ed, Bill B., Tully A., Susie S. Mike, Billy R., Rick A. These people helped to shape my understanding of service. I learned that people did recover in NA and that NA had a different message. I HEARD IT. WOW!!!!!!!!! What an awakening.... I heard Larry North share at Cheeha and the 3rd paragraph of We Do Recover read. A love affair was born. A love affair with this fellowship, and our message began. I wanted to share that. Members brought back the 3^rd paragraph as an opening reading to our group and we began to read it at every meeting.

In area service we understood that we did not know everything, so we asked some of the people mentioned above, and others to come share in workshops about our message and how to carry that message. We are not addicted to crosses, polyï¿½s, anda's or anything else. I wondered how I would be received, if I said hello, I am Grover, and I am a welder.... We learned and grew, our area grew and so did our service committee meetings.

We heard about inclusive service, leading by example, how our book was written, and some of our pamphlets. We heard that addicts could somehow no longer write, the book was a fluke. Many other things were being done and said in that time period that threatened what we saw as a Spiritually based service structure and were in conflict with our Traditions. We took a stand. Anytime someone stands for something you will have opposition. We saw many members standing for Spiritually based service and our Traditions as a guide while others wanted to streamline the process and turn writing over to the professionals. To some of us the very thing that helped us to fell and be a part of, was sighted for dismantle and termination.

II. The Committee forms

If we are hurting what does our sponsor tell us? Write! History cannot be written from one personï¿½s point of view, or it is distorted, and perverted... Orson Wells 1984 gave us an inside view of this. Only those that fear the light, cling to the darkness.... Our disease does not want us to recover. I believe it is the same with the fellowship at large. An addict went to Motorcycle Edï¿½s home and asked, ï¿½ what we could do to bring healing, if a Fourth Step heals, could we not do a Fourth Step in the form of history and heal?" Ed, and the member prayed in that room, and felt if addicts can recover through a historical look at their life then maybe the fellowship could find unity after a historical look at itself. After much prayer and thought, this was taken through the service structure and approved. Bill B. was given the intent and was asked if he would chair the committee for NA History. He accepted. I was voted in as Co-Chair. That trip to Edï¿½s house gave us our start. Bill saying yes sealed the deal. We were on.

The intent of the committee was to gather facts. Interview people, gather documents and make it available for all members. We knew that many people see one wreck from many different points of view. So to be honest, fair, searching, and fearless all avenue's had to be researched. The Basic Text project gave us a perfect tried and proven method of how to do this. There were many facts to consider, we were an aging fellowship, and many had passed, I feared many more would before it is done. Time was important. Below is a picture of first History Committee. Left to right is, member, Richard and wife from Guntersville Al., member, member, Bill B. Decatur Al., Grover N. Athens Al. These members worked hard, worked together, raised money and hosted the first Conference in Madison Al.

III. The First Celebration Set

The committee was formed and sponsored by two primary Areas the North AL. and N.E. Al. Areas of NA. Officers voted in and minutes kept. The first task was to agree on what we wanted to achieve. We envisioned bringing members together to share archives and to get on tape members that were there and had first hand knowledge of how things were done and got done. We felt celebrating our Fellowships Birthday would be the best way to bring members together. A conference held with its focus on our history. We decided on the date that we understood at that point to be the starting of NA. August 17^th 1953. We sat a number of goals. We held several fundraisers/speaker meetings. Artwork was submitted, tee shirts made and site agreed on. Madison Alabama. The committee was adopted as a regional committee that same year.

We sat out to contact Greg P., Bo S., Joseph P., and Jim M. These people that had first hand knowledge of our service structure and how the book was written. Our Registration packet was give special consideration. We wanted to give a piece of our History to those attending. So we used a copy of the first white book and changed the color of the cover as to not offend anyone. As anyone knows that has helped to organize and host a major event in NA it took a lot of hours and hard work to keep our areas informed and to be fully self supporting. We did not want to take money away from our PI and H&I efforts at the area or region.

IV. Members Gather

About 200 members showed up from all over the country. There was an archive room set up. Greg and other members brought lots of memorabilia, and archived literature no one had seen before. Copiers were also set up for archives to be gathered and shared.

There were more archive tables as well as copiers and computer tables set up in this room in order to facilitate the work.

Tully A. opened the Celebration with ï¿½Iï¿½m Tully and Iï¿½m an addict! Hi Family, Iï¿½d like to welcome everyone to the Celebration of NA History, itï¿½s this Regionï¿½s first and hopefully we will have many, many, many more. Before we get started I would like to read the purpose: ï¿½The Alabama N.W. Florida Region of Narcotics Anonymous has formed a Committee whose purpose is to host a Celebration of NA History. Our intent is to bring our archives and fellowship together for a weekend of learning and sharing and at a point in the near future to have our legacy in written form through the Spirit of a loving God.ï¿½

V. Speaker Transcripts from the Convention

NA HISTORY CONVENTION

MADISON, ALABAMA

AUGUST 1990

Madison History Conference Opening 1990

The Northwest Florida‑Alabama Region History Committee

Planners: Tully, Donnie and Roxanne, Dickie, Grover N,

Madison Workshop

History of NA Conference

Friday Opening Meeting

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Hello, I am Tully, I am an addict, hi Tully, hey family. I would like to welcome everyone to the celebration, the NA celebration of NA History. It is this regions first and hopefully we will have many, many more. Keep coming back Dickie. Before we get started, I would like to read the purpose the History Committee purpose. The Northwest Florida‑Alabama Region has formed a committee whose purpose is to host a celebration of NA History. Our intent is to bring our archives and fellowship together for a weekend of learning and sharing at a point in the near future recent history to have our legacy in written form through the spirit of a loving God. The purpose of this weekend is to celebrate recovery not to sabotage to reputation of Narcotics Anonymous. We hope all addicts receive the best message possible while attending our conference. We also hope to make the message obvious to anyone who comes in contact with our fellowship. As a member attending, this conference if you see someone acting inappropriately please be responsible, and that is me too. Take time to do something about it. Notify conference committee members at the registration area. Before I go on any, further this meeting is being taped if you did not know. To the press, our public relations policy is based on attraction rather than promotion. We need always maintain personal anonymity at the level of press, radio and films. If any members of the press are present, please contact someone in the registration area for information. We ask that no pictures be taken during the meetings. If you wish to take pictures, please ask before you click your camera thank you. If you guys will please help me to open with a moment of silence followed by the we version of the serenity prayer. God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can and the wisdom to know the difference, amen.

Tommy G reads, Who Is

Bob B of Huntsville reads: What is an NA Program

Shalah reads: How

Cat C. reads: 12 Traditions

Susie B. of Birmingham reads: We do recover (third paragraph)

I am Tully and still an addict, hi Tully, hey family. Gosh when we first started out reading there was only about half of us here so we have filled up during our readings. Welcome glad to have you here. Tonight we are having a party in participation and the topic is ï¿½What were my feelings when I first saw the bookï¿½?

I got clean in 1982, the first part of ï¿½82 and we did not have a hard back Basic Text. My first meeting all I had was a little White Book with phone numbers in it. To me that was my book. Then I came across a little sleeky approval form, best seven dollars I ever spent. I do not know about yï¿½all but I took that book with me everywhere, to work, especially to meetings and I am the type of person that has to highlight things because I like to go back and let that magnify in my crazy mind. I do not know where my original approval form is today; I just hope somewhere it is doing somebody some good. I held onto that little book because it was talking about me and I never truly knew what a hug was until I read that book. I guess it was just the best hug I had ever had in my life, because that book was filled with warmth, understanding and unconditional love. I do not know how yï¿½all were brought up but I was brought up within service and there was no way around it. Either you were in service or you were in service, so I chose to be in service, and I am proud of it, proud of it. I am grateful today; I was very excited that we were finally going to have a book. Many of us back then knew that we were having a controversy whether to have the book out or not but by the grace of God, we did. That book talked about me, talked about me. It was like how do yï¿½all know how I feel inside without me sharing in meetings? I felt blessed with that book. I was so proud of it, I am still proud of it. Today I carry a paperback with me, but I guess my precious present to me is my little sleeky, because that was my best friend. I read it, reread it, read it, and reread it. I guess my favorite chapter is Chapter 10, ï¿½More will be revealedï¿½. I do not want to stay up here and talk to long so I am going to open the floor up and the topic is ï¿½What were our feelings when we first saw the bookï¿½. I am not going to ask that you show hands, just come on up and share if you wish. Love you all and glad to have you here. (Applause)

Hi my name is Frank and I am an addict, hi Frank. You know I guess when we all come into the fellowship, depending on what edition we are on, what book you know that is the one we latch onto. For me it was the Third Edition Revised. Like you mentioned when I first read that book or heard the readings in the meetings, I thought that someone had been following me around all my life with a pencil and a pad and writing down everything that I did. You know it was through that and through the people that I have met in the fellowship that you know I am not a generic freak and I am not no different. You know I have blessed with a person a former sponsor of mine that I got to travel pretty much all over the east coast with. The things that I have learned from listening to you all in different places was that we all share the same feelings and we all share the same experiences and I hope we share what we talk about in the steps especially the commitment we talk about in the third step. You know there have been times especially early on. To tell you exactly why I got clean nothing would work no more. About 8 months before I got clean the only string with sanity the only things that meant anything to me passed away, my grandmother and from that point on the disease of addiction in whatever I did nothing worked anymore. I was always one who strove for attention and when I came to my first Narcotics Anonymous meeting, I found that. You know and I could not be with addicts all the time and I mean there were times when I had to go home and go to sleep or when I use to go to work, I would bring the White Book with me and read it. When things would get carried away, I would go into the bathroom or something and start reading. My favorite chapter is ï¿½Just for Todayï¿½. That was one of the things I read everyday and ï¿½Who is an Addictï¿½, step one, two and three and traditions one, two and three. I got into that daily ritual. You know I do not want to separate one edition from another. You know that words are there. Some words have changed a little bit here and there but they are all very special. I have a disease that wants to separate them and I am not into that. I know better but every once in awhile I get caught up in some of the things that go on around here. You know I am trying not to do that today. I am trying to accept the book for what it is.

The reason I came here was last year, I think in the early part of the year there was an event in Northern New Jersey. After the event, a group of us went out to dinner and there were a few people there that had a lot to do with the first book being written. I felt a certain energy as they were talking about it a little bit and I knew these people would be here this weekend that is why I am here. The people that I know that were involved, there is one man that is very special to me you know and I reach out. I come from Connecticut but I have no problem having to call Georgia or having to call Pennsylvania or to do whatever it takes to do. You know surrendering to the words within that book that mean a lot to me. You know it is my whole life. My existence would not be possible today without that book. I am grateful to be here and I love you all, thank you. (Applause)

Hi I am Frieda, I am an addict, hi Frieda. I am grateful to be here tonight clean and see all of yï¿½all. The book for me is such a comfort because I am not always willing to call somebody and I am not always willing to go to a meeting and I do not always follow the suggestions that are offered to me. I want to still hold onto my way a lot of the time, hide, and get better before I come around. I know that does not work but I try to keep doing it, but thank God the Basic Text has a message for me that I can always receive a blessing from if I put out some effort to read it. Sometimes I hear things from other addicts that I choose to close my mind to but there are things in the Basic Text that I can read for the tenth time and get hope from what I am seeing in that book and use it. So for me the blessing of our literature is that I do not just have one chance to hear about it. I do not have just one chance to meet that person that is carrying that message, but I can keep it with me and always turn to it. I do not ever have to be with out it. I love you all and glad to be here, thank you. (Applause)

My name is Victor and I am an addict, hi Victor. I am very happy to be here. I had the book for a year and I did not read it because I was afraid of the book. It was given to me by the person that brought me to the rooms and they said read this. I got scared I did not want to look in that book you know and just put it up on the shelf for a year and a month, I finally finished reading it, and I identified a lot with what it had to say. My favorite chapter is ï¿½We do recoverï¿½ and it helped me. I just was not ready to read I do not know but it is one of the few books that I have ever finished reading in my life. I have only maybe read five books and that is the one that made the difference you know. It has helped me a lot and I am really happy to be here. I identify with a lot of the stories and like I said they gave it to me, someone just gave it to me the person who brought me into the rooms. In Miami where I am from I went and did my recovery in Spanish, they do not have a Spanish text, and I am trying to get involved in that. You know I am not going to the translation committee because I am slacking off but I am trying to help in other ways to get a book out for people who need it in Spanish. I think that is important for my recovery to help to pass the message in Spanish because that is how I received it. I feel really happy to be here and I am trying little by little to be more and more apart of this great organization that saved my life. Because I would not be here if it were not for NA, you know and there is so much to give back and I am just trying to do my best, thank you. (Applause)

I am an addict and my name is Gayla, hi Gayla. I came around in May of ï¿½84, went to meetings every night, and got clean in October, we had a White Book, and that was all we had. That is all we knew about. We did not know they had IPï¿½s and all of that and we found an address. My sponsor and I found an address and we knew there were a lot of people that were staying clean with us and we were afraid that with nothing to hold onto besides just each other and going to meetings that we were going to loose a couple. We ordered a box of whatever it is they had out there you know we did not know. We found out they were eight dollars and we ordered as many as we had money for and there was a big box that came, and they came and went because my sponsor and I gave them away. You know it has just been two years ago that I got myself another Second Edition and that was given to me by somebody that knew we had given some away like that. I do not know I think there were twenty or twenty‑five in there.

When I first came around and the White Book was the only thing we had around I was a real dope fiend man I stole a book you know. (Laughter) Then I was in a meeting and I heard them say that they didnï¿½t have anymore so I felt really bad then and went and made copies and took the original back in and I snuck it in so that nobody would know that I stole it. It is in my fourth step and it is no big deal now. I love you guys. (Applause)

I am Terry and I am an addict, hi Terry. When I came in in ï¿½82 we had this book here, it use to be called the hip pocket program. It fits real good and this book is real special to me too. That was my Bible, I worked off shore, and I do not recommend you do what I did. I went through treatment and I spent seven weeks in treatment and being that I worked out in the gulf the time you spent in you had to spend out so seven weeks out in the gulf you can go kind of crazy. They did not have any telephones and you could not walk to meetings because you were about a hundred miles off shore. This was my Bible and a lot of people did not want to be around me because I was crazy. Anybody that I could grab and sit and ;listen to me for five minutes and I did not care if they understood me or not I shared with them what I was going through. A lot of them did not come back you know because they did not want to hear what I had to say but it helped me.

When we got our first Basic Text, the Red Book I sat down and I cried because you know that is real special. You know that was our first one to me. You know we had the Grey Book but I did not have a copy of that. I have had a copy of just about every other one and being the good dope fiend that I am I gave it away. I was told the only way I can keep what I have is by giving it away. I gave all of my books away but I did not give away my Red Book. You know a lot of addictï¿½s work a long time on those books, spent a lot of man‑hours a lot of sleepless nights. You know I have been involved in service since I got clean you know it never killed me to sit in a committee meeting and argue with some other people that did not agree with me, it still donï¿½t but it is ok. Narcotics Anonymous is my life and that is it. I ainï¿½t got no other I am not willing to go out and use again because I do not know if I have another recovery in me and I am not willing to take that chance. I have been going through a lot of pain lately and a few weeks ago, I wanted to use real bad. I was told that if you stay around long enough in the program somebody else will go out and use for you and that happened and the girl came back, shared about it, and said that it just gets worse. My desire to use went away but this was my Bible for a long time until a book came out, thank you. (Applause)

Madison History Conference #3

Friday Night Opening (continued)

Speaker: Guy

Everybody my name is Guy and I am an addict, hi Guy. I have often thought that I was real fortunate in recovery in the respect that kind of the path that I ended up following led me to a lot of different people that were involved with the writing of the text. So I cannot share exactly in like the same type of joy and jubilation of having been apart of the actual process. Most certainly as one of the things that to say maybe around a hundred times I have pondered since I have been clean now, ï¿½damn if you would have just gotten clean a little bit longer you could have done thatï¿½. I heard a long time ago that you do not leave empty‑handed and there are still lots of opportunities for me to be involved today in many different things.

What I can share with you is my first experience of seeing the book. It was not that big a deal to me. You see the reason I bought a book was not because I wanted to read the thing. It was because I wanted to fit in. Everybody that I knew in the meetings had a book you know. The disease wanted me to feel in the worst way that I fit in and I figured what the hell the eight or nine dollars was a lot cheaper than the dope I was spending so I would invest. You know maybe the other thing that before I realized that the help of the book through a sponsor that I got a little bit later down the road that there were actually words in this thing that were meant to be read. It became much more valuable in the sense that what it became for me was a telephone book.

That Third Edition Basic Text and I have a lot of different versions. I do not have them all but I have a few and that one is like ï¿½my bookï¿½. The reason it is like that is because the wear and tear on that one is all my wear and tear. That is the one that has been to all the meetings. That is the one that you can hardly read the NA logo on anymore on the front of it. That is the one with the binding all torn and it is the one with phone numbers filling every blank page of the Basic Text. What makes it so special to me looking at it today is that one thing that I have learned through that whole process is that we are very transient people in recovery, even clean you know. Almost none of the numbers are the same anymore, everybody has moved around. One of the like most significant things for me in there is every now and then as I go looking for somebodyï¿½s number as I go flipping through the pages for phone numbers, there are two of them that I always have to stop at and kind of look at and it is not my sponsorï¿½s phone number. It is not real good friends; it is addicts that chose to go out and get loaded that are dead now. They are people that NA introduced me to that were apart of my life. That is the reality of the disease and that is real good for me, it kind of like kicks me in the ass every time I stop and look at it. Yep the disease is real it ainï¿½t bullshit. It is there and it could have been you.

I can get a little bit grateful you know. Hell I was asking Ed you know I read the newsletters and stuff like that and what was it about six months ago we just went over our millionth Basic Text sold, half a year ago, somewhere around there. I mean the only thought I can think after that is that a few years down the road is ï¿½Look out McDonaldsï¿½. Thanks. (Applause)

Speaker: Kevin

Hi everybody I am Kevin and I am an addict, hi Kevin. I wish I could say also that I was one of those people that could share these long stories about how it happened. I am grateful for those people because if it were not for that Basic Text from that person who answered my phone call gave me and I opened it up and saw that there was a whole bunch of writing in it and I did not understand it because he scratched all the womenï¿½s phone number. There was a whole bunch of lines and highlight is like I heard somebody say earlier in there and I did not understand it. I heard him say later that those were things that stood out for him and maybe you will read it and find something that stood out for you and you can do the same thing, so I did that.

Also, when I first got clean, I think it was about two days after I had got clean this book came into my life. He told me to get phone numbers before I left meetings or he would not give me a ride home and I believed him. So I to used it for a telephone directory and I remember I had lived with the people I used with for the first week of my recovery and it was a real uncomfortable situation when I found myself walking around the dope table and saying that I could handle it once again. I found myself locking myself in my room with the telephone in one hand and the Basic Text next to me. It was really ironic because I looked at the list of the people and there was only one person I felt comfortable talking to and it was the guy that gave me the book but I figured I used him enough and I needed to call somebody else. I called this gentleman by the name of Sam and Sam asked me and one of my favorite chapters in the Basic Text is ï¿½What can I doï¿½ because what can I do has some things in there that I can do. He told me first to pat myself on the back because I did what I needed to do and then read the book and then call him back and I told him that I felt a lot better. You know there are a lot of things I can do.

A lot of the things have come from the people who came before me have made it possible for me. I am not going to knock; I am here to learn what it took to make this thing happen. I really appreciate the turn out and all the people sharing their experience with the little White Book. Even though that was the only thing that I carried around with me to work and I us to run center lines down the middle of highways and I use to talk to God and tell him to kill me, to take my life from me. You know I was one of those people who wished a heart attack type of deal. The insanity that the second step talks about and I found myself running center lines down roads and my party chief and the chairman would walk down marking center lines and I would have the thing out reading a fuckin story. Excuse my language, I apologize.

That is what got me through, that is what got me through, rubbing key tags, reading the text and reading this little book here and it was a nasty little thing. I still got it with all my other nasty key tags in a little box you know. I sat here since everybody, since three people shared I am like ok I will go now, and somebody would get up so I waited and it kept going and going and I was like I canï¿½t top that. Somebody said I do not have to be like that I just have to identify with what goes on in the Basic Text. I appreciate all the hard from everybody that put something into it and make it happen for me, thanks. (Applause)

Speaker: Pat

I am Pat I am an addict, hi Pat. Hi family, I am grateful to be clean tonight. For a long time whenever I told my story, I remember the first time I ever told my story it was at my home group and when I got to the point where I shared about the person who shared Narcotics Anonymous with me the message as I know it today. I could not get past that point. That knot would get right here you know and I would say how he gave me the White Book and I would have to just stand there and wait because God forbid that I cry you know. You know I would have to wait until it went away, but I can remember that just as clear if it was yesterday.

My first NA Meeting and I knew when I walked in that room I knew I was where I was supposed to be. They did not have any of the White Books at the meeting so he carried me upstairs to his office and gave me a White Book. I told him that I had tried to quit using but that I did not know how. So he gave me a little White Book and I carried it home and started reading it and I could identify in that book. You know I read it and read it and read it. My ex‑husband was in treatment and when I would go and see him I would get every piece of NA literature they had and read it and take it home and read it. You know it was like I was a sponge, I could not get enough. You know I did not know that there was recovery. I thought that addicts just died or kept on using. It was like the guy who gave me the little White Book said, there is a way out you do not have to die today.

I am real grateful for the people that were here before me and allowed their Higher Power to work through them to bring Narcotics Anonymous to whatever it was when I got here. My first little White Book, my first NA Basic Text you know I did not know if it was approved or unapproved, you know it did not matter to me you knows I was just grateful. I never even knew that there was not a book you know. I was just grateful that there was something that I could identify with and knew that I could stay clean if I did what that little White Book told me. I knew that I would stay clean. There was that little glimmer of hope and the faith that I had that if I would just read my book that I would stay clean and do what it said. I remember a lot of times and I still do this today. I think well, I will open my book to a certain place, and I know that God has got a message there for me. You know and I will just do that, open it to a certain place and there is usually a message there for me. I remember when I first got clean my concentration was real bad and I would read my book and I would not know what it said. I knew if I would just open that book and read it c and it didnï¿½t matter if I didnï¿½t remember what it said I knew that I was doing what I was suppose to be doing.

They told me the same thing about working the steps or die. Told me to get involved that service work would keep me clean. You know and I have tried to do that. I have tried to give away what has been given to me so freely. You know I am just real grateful for this program and for the people that were here before me and the positive role models that was here to teach me how to live. Love yï¿½all. (Applause)

Speaker: Chris

I am Chris and I am an addict, hi Chris. I will make this short. The first time I saw that book I was in treatment and they gave us a bunch of books. We had step studies on another book and that was the one we had to do our homework on in treatment was that other book. I read that one you know and did the best I could with it. They made us read all these other books but they never said nothing about this book. So I figured that that was the one I wanted to read. They did not say shit about this book and are giving me all kinds of homework on feelings and but they ainï¿½t saying nothing about this book you know so I started reading it. They had taken us out to NA Meetings and I remember when I first opened that book and started reading I was like hey I have heard this before. That is when it hit me that the readings that they were reading in those meetings you know. These damn things are chapters you know, there is more to it than what they are reading in the meetings.

That is when I started to get some hope because I was one of those who went to treatment and did not want to go. You know I did not have any problem that shit is illegal but there was no problem you know. That book showed me that there was a problem. I stayed around and I thought I could bullshit my way around the treatment center. You know they would see that I was all right or they could send me with the crazies like the rest of us. I kept reading that book like I said and I saw some hope. It was like when I said before it was like I thought somebody had been following me around you know cause all the stuff like that I thought I was going through that nobody else had ever been through. Well somebody else has been through it and it amazed me you know. You know I was still real sick and I thought well this is why they do not want me to read this because they do not want me to know that I am not crazy you know that I am just sick. You know they wanted me to be another kind of person and all this stuff. You gave me a lot of hope and I am real glad to be here and am real glad to see some of the people that wrote this book. You know it is nice to know that they are still around. It is nice to know that I did not get here before the people that I owed so much to and at least get to meet them. I love you all. (Applause)

Speaker; Pete

My name is Pete and I am an addict, hi Pete. First time I saw the book I was in a meeting and they told me that I needed one of them. First thing I asked of course was how much was it. They told me eight dollars and I said well I do not have it and somebody gave me one and that was real neat. Today I have been able to give a few away myself and that is how it works. You know history has always been written by the winners quote and the winners destroyed what was written before. We have an opportunity to go to the source and I have gotten a lot of phone calls in the past week, he said she said they said, dada, dada, dada. I said well it sounds like rumors to me. Well what are you going to do about it and I said well what do you want me to do about it. I donï¿½t know get a butterfly net and catch them, you know I donï¿½t know. Here I know we have an opportunity to go to the source. You know most histories are not able to be written by going to the source. You know we have a source and that is really neat. You know that is what recovery is about, sharing experience, strength and hope. You know we have a rare opportunity to go to the source. Where it goes and what we do with it we will find out. You know more will be revealed. Thank you I am glad to be here. (Applause)

Speaker: Little Eric

Hi everybody I am Little Eric and I am an addict, Hi Eric. I am grateful to be here and I just wanted to share my story of the Basic Text is when I was in treatment. I read that line that said, ï¿½We have found from our group experience that those people who keep coming to meetings regularly stay cleanï¿½. You know and I looked up at my counselor and she said ok now define regular. The only thing that I could think of was my grandmother. When she said she was regular that meant everyday. (Laughter) I swear to God. So I told myself that if I would just go to these meetings on a regular basis that I could stay clean because it said so. I really believed it and the process that my mind went through was that these people that had been, you know I was a newcomer a couple weeks clean. These people that had been around for years and years and years found out of habit from going to these meetings over and over and over and they noticed this trend that people who came regularly stayed clean. I grabbed onto that and that one sentence gave me a lot of hope in the beginning. That is my little story, thanks. (Applause)

Speaker: Tully

I am Tully and I am still an addict, hi Tully. Thanks everybody for coming up and sharing and thanks to those who did not come up and share for sticking it out with us. I realize it has been a long meeting but it has been well worthwhile. Let us have Shorty come up tonight and give out our chips.

My name is Greg, and Iï¿½m an addict. Somehow I ended up on some kind of literature committee in 1971. A variety of things had happened. We used to have a taped meeting for the purpose of developing literature. Every Saturday we would go down to this guyï¿½s house and run the tape recorders and have a meeting. I donï¿½t know what happened to any of that stuff. To my knowledge none of it ever became literature. But it was real interesting, and there was interest there. I guess that was how I really got involved. Iï¿½ve got a letter I wrote in 72 asking for input for a text. Part of the problem, for me, was that there was always so much to do and so few to do it. In the seventies you didnï¿½t stay involved in any one thing very long because you were always fighting fires. There was no service structure; there was no working service boards and committeeï¿½s. Well, there was one. There wasnï¿½t any ï¿½anybodyï¿½ taking care of your service needs. If there was need, you went and did it.

If there wasnï¿½t a group somewhere in some part of town, you went over to that part town and started a group. And then you went there every week for a year. If there was a need for H&I work, you didnï¿½t wait for some committee to tell you how to do it, you went and did it and tried to follow the traditions to the best of your ability. If there was a P1 need, for instance, this was in California, if the LA County Sheriffï¿½s Department wanted an orientation on NA, you didnï¿½t go to a P1 committee because there werenï¿½t any. A member who had been around some time grabbed a couple of white books and went and did it.

Thatï¿½s really the way it was, there werenï¿½t to many bodies going around, I think there were maybe half a dozen live wires. I guess I got involved in the Basic Text before there was really much effort going. Iï¿½ve heard Bo talk about our first meeting, and I know that during the seventies we were always on the lookout for another live wire. If any body showed any interest they got encouraged, they got put on a committee, they got asked to participate but very little was forthcoming. There was some writing prior and some work done prior to the effort towards the Basic Text. Maybe heï¿½ll talk about that in another section. But thatï¿½s how I got here. I felt like I was here before we started. I got involved the same way the rest of us get involved.

Hi, Iï¿½m Jim and I am an addict. I got a letter in the mail, I think that was the first thing, maybe it wasnï¿½t, but it sounds dramatic so maybe Iï¿½ll share it that way. The letter said "you are the book". It went on to talk about how "you are the only Basic Text that anybody will read. And unless you write it down and share it, weï¿½re not going to have one." I think that was what got me started writing it down. Thatï¿½s probably the most important part of my being a part of. This service effort was actually sitting down with that most intimidating of things, a blank sheet of paper and a pencil.

When I was about 3 months clean, but claimed I had a year and 3 months, I went to my first convention. Which was a world convention because that was the only kind of conventions there were at the time. It was in Atlanta, I left about ten times, because there wasnï¿½t a single NA speaker. Not that the people didnï¿½t do what they thought was right and shared what they thought was kind of like recovery with everybody. It had a lot of spirit, a lot of caring love, a lot of love caring concern, they just werenï¿½t NA speakers. They didnï¿½t find their recovery here and didnï¿½t perceive themselves as being powerless over addiction. Iï¿½m very judgmental, the more you hear me talk, the more you will understand that. I make a decision right up about a speaker and even more so then.

At any rate, we couldnï¿½t get literature in our group at home and I wanted to go see why, and fix it. I figured I couldnï¿½t just by jumping up and down and screaming. I heard about Wichita, I heard about there being a thing for the book, a movement to write the book, but probably the most important thing was that I went to a club house outside of Atlanta after the convention and heard an NA speaker, and sat in on this service committee meeting. I sat up next to this cuddly, pudgy fellow in overalls who put his arm around me and took me off to the side afterwards and said "do you need a Tree?" This guy hunted in his house and brought it out after a long time and I got involved, and I got cared for. I think thatï¿½s what Iï¿½m trying to say here with a lot of words. I got loved and cared for, I got an arm put around me with a lot of love, care and concern and the feeling of "we want you involved, we will include you whenever you are here, we will spend whatever time it takes to explain these concepts to you and what you have to say is important, it doesnï¿½t matter who you are or were youï¿½ve been." Thatï¿½s the feeling I got and the spirit I caught and the service that I found in the Lit committee and in world service in 1979- 1980. Thatï¿½s what kept me coming and got me involved and thatï¿½s what more than even recovery that inclusiveness, teaching about surrender is whatï¿½s made me who I am today.

Here I am, out of order again, my name is Bo, and Iï¿½m an addict. Well I feel like I got started on this last night, I donï¿½t want to be as dumb as I am, and repeat everything, but maybe thatï¿½s what I need to do. Maybe, from a slightly different angle. For one thing Iï¿½m real glad that Ed and Jim and Greg and I can be here, and I still hope our other buddy Joe, will drag in from Memphis, we may try to keep it light but actually weï¿½re sort of like revolutionaries and the warï¿½s are real and the woundï¿½s are real and we have casualties so if Joe canï¿½t make it, pray for him. Battles are played out in these halls and we do the best we can to care and share and occasionally we get a chance to really do something in service. I guess my personal starting place was like every other starting place in my life, I was there, wherever it was, I was there very much before it happened, but wherever it was, I was never around when it was happening. I was always hearing about it, reading about it, doing some dope; I kept missing it, whatever it was. I wasnï¿½t even sure it was real or really happened.

Obviously there was a lot of stuff around so you figured it came from some place but you know, like how to actually be there. I was always to young or to old or to fat or to skinny or to smart or too dumb or too early or too late or just out of sync actually. Of course part of the time in active addiction I may not have been out of sync except I put myself out of sync with what I put in, and missed chances that way. The last thing I expected when I read the lines in a book called the Beatï¿½s that Synnanon grew out of some meetings in a building where NA meetings were held in Santa Monica that I would ever get involved much with NA, because I was just a sixteen year old beatnik reading a book finding out how to be weird.

Truncating the whole deal a little bit, in 1971 or so, I called information in Atlanta to find out if there was a meeting of Narcotics Anonymous in Atlanta, because all that back ground behavior up to that point it seemed like I ought to be contacting Narcotics Anonymous. At that point I had just spent two years on the strip down at Atlanta; I was on the 6 oï¿½clock and 11 oï¿½clock news whenever I wanted to be. The mayor came to Human Improvement Project, Inc. on 10th street in Atlanta frequently. We used to figure out ways to force him to come down, and if he didnï¿½t come down weï¿½d go down there like one time Mohamed All donated fifty thousand dollars to fight addiction in Atlanta. And so this rough looking hippy with blond hair like this leans over this desk and says " how about some of that fifty thousand dollars Mayor Massell." and Sam leaned back, you know and people were dying down there, and we interacted with federal, state and local efforts, churches, do goobers, medical societies. There were Jesuits down there. There were federal people down there. A lot of people good willed down there. A lot of people came down there looking for there kids. A lot of times we would develop relationships with families slash kids. A lot of weird stuff happened.

Towards the end I had to strap on a loaded six gun every time the sun went down because it was that rough down there. Just to feel okay, like I could walk to the store and back. The reason Iï¿½m stressing all this is because two year experience like that, working at night and day, eating, sleeping, breathing it, reading magazines, hearing whatever people brought, all convinced me that there was absolutely no hope anywhere on the entire planet for addicts seeking recovery. There was no hope at all, there was none; there was nothing you could do. You were trapped, it was over, there was no way out, there was no such thing as living clean. It was like you had slid into a pit, I guess you got them around here, these creatures that live in the sand and make a living off of killing ants. The way they do it is they make a little suck hole for themselves and the ant comes in if it ever crosses within that circle thatï¿½s like a fallen cone then the Ant Lion, I think is the name of it, kicks up sand so that the ant even though it struggles, it thinks itï¿½s going get out, and gets to the edge. It really doesnï¿½t, it really just keeps falling to the lower and lower circle to the bottom so the Ant Lion can bite it and suck itï¿½s juice out and all that. Kind of like ground spiders, in a way.

Being an addict was sort of like that. Once you were over the edge a little to far, you might see the edge again, you might think you were actually going to get out, but something would always happen right before you did, and you would be at a lower level to lower level. Iï¿½m sure everybody in this room knows how ridiculously Iï¿½m glossing over actual horror and feeling that goes with discovering that you are that kind of addict. And somethingï¿½s got you and you canï¿½t see the motherfucker but you know itï¿½s there because itï¿½s doing it to you. Sometimes were struggling to be nice, sometimes were struggling to do better, and sometimes were struggling to be a good person, to do the right thing, but as soon we get to the close to the edge like weï¿½re going to be on our way with our lives something has got us, something kicks in our face and we fall down, and all we know is we are trapped and canï¿½t get out of it until the last moment. Then we know somethingï¿½s got us but we donï¿½t have time to talk about it much.

Weï¿½re clean addicts who figured out something had them₄and if there going to do any talking, they better talk quick, mostly because allot of us have seen our friends die, you know, using, car accident, choke on your own puke, OD, shot, stabbed, you know, there is just a lot of ways.

This one young lady shared with me and God I hope sheï¿½s here, I hope she hears this and I hope she donï¿½t get pissed at me talking about, but itï¿½s just so fucking typical, and this woman was shooting dope with her girlfriend and the girlfriend had the dope and she had wanted the dope, so they got off, and her girlfriend went into a heavy nod, so she took the rest of the dope and shot it and split before her girlfriend had come out of the nod because she didnï¿½t want to get yelled at for stealing the rest of the dope and doing it, and left the woman there passed out on the couch with her two or three year old daughter and found out later her girlfriend had died and the baby had been left with her dead Mom on the couch for three days, and didnï¿½t feel to hot about herself, you know, or maybe, you know, there was something wrong about the way she was living.

It didnï¿½t have anything to do with the cops, the establishment or all the TV ideas about what drug addiction does to you. Coming from that background, and the thing we had been doing on the strip had sort of died out, which was great. Now, I tried to call Narcotics Anonymous. We held like six meetings and had a copy of, a green colored copy of the white book but had no idea about anonymous principles or real steps or traditions. The people who were good enough to provide the green covered booklet were alcoholics and I couldnï¿½t relate to that. I thanked them a lot, you know, and after a while we stopped the meeting, you know itï¿½s kind of like trying to learn the song, we couldnï¿½t quite catch the tune.

So, three years later is my clean date, and Iï¿½ve been going to meetings ever since. Since June 10, 1974. Yeah, I think I went through a stage, you know. There was, letï¿½s see, I got clean in 74, and there wasnï¿½t even the Grey Form until 80 or so, that means I was, staying clean on the little white booklet for maybe, six years.

I understand how a lot of people feel real strongly about some of the lines in Recovery and Relapse, some of the lines in We Do Recover, some of the basic stuff about the Steps. I think I read a couple of the stories in the back of the basic text a couple of times. The thing that kept me going was the sincere newcomers, the idea of recovery, all those discussions, all the phone calls, eventually all the meetings.

When NA started clicking and growing, there were meetings in nearby states and other parts of the country and communicating with them, those are the things that really fired my recovery. In a sense, more because being in a situation that God set up for me, we had more, like, terrifically sincere newcomers. The questions they asked kept me moving, and jumping, and calling, and writing, trying to get their answers. You couldnï¿½t do something as simple as go to a book and flip it open to a section you read, this is even with other material from Alcoholics Anonymous or from other sources, you know, we were doing the best we could back then. The answers just really werenï¿½t there. There were breakdowns, I mean I was going into NA meetings and there would be NA newcomers there, sometimes quite upset, sometimes real pissed off about the notion of having to substitute drug for alcohol, and problems other than drugs, which was a famous piece. I said, hey, look, I know some thing about that program and that guy did not ever mean to piss somebody like you off or make you uncomfortable or kill your chances of recovery. So I believe if that guy were here today, he would tell you to do what Iï¿½m going to tell you to do, and thatï¿½s tear that damn pamphlet in half and throw it in the trash. The guy was sort of trapped a moment before I said that, but the idea that he could do that, and plus he had my support and encouragement and permission, he was suddenly free. That guy is still clean today, right?

But, you know, a lot of people didnï¿½t have somebody there to say no, get clean, thatï¿½s the main thing, donï¿½t pay attention to that paper, itï¿½ll upset you. It was that kind of fertile land or something, you know, so much shit there - any seed that dropped there is bound to grow. I had pressure put on me like that, I hit the NA trail. Itï¿½s always sickening how I read occasionally how phrases like this get turned around.

I headed out to the greater NA, I had to discover the greater NA. I heard that line like, abused by someone who quoted is an instance of, like, better NA was where they were at, or something weird like that. Okay, I mean I donï¿½t know what that is, sometimes I think itï¿½s like everybody is born in recovery somewhere and they got themselves and their locale, and their circle of friends, and somehow the old human habit of, anybody thatï¿½s close, anybody that knows their name, anybody in my circle of friends itï¿½s okay, but those other people, you know, theyï¿½re out to get you. I mean, even within the fellowship, itï¿½s sort of like weï¿½re all ape men or something, and we got to live by the law of the fang. If youï¿½re not careful, then somebody will come in and burn your village.

Itï¿½s real weird, itï¿½s real weird, I think something that changed my recovery experience early on was, for being a hippy all those years, and all the other stuff, was just the idea that if the most dangerous thing to do, short of actually using was to wish harm to another member, and itï¿½s been extremely to walk the mile of walks and not wish harm to other members, with the road filled with thieves and assholes and son-of-a-bitches along the way, but Iï¿½ve never wished them harm, Iï¿½ve tried to rationalize it and play down the bad part of it and accentuate the good part of it. But, I was used to overriding it you know, you donï¿½t have a choice of drugs like LSD without expressing the positive and emphasizing a lot of inter-direction and being objective.

I still bear marks from that, you know, maybe theyï¿½ll continue to rub out of my personality. But the main thing is when people like got clean there was no Basic Text, like what Greg said. I saw a copy of a letter sent out from the office in 1972, maybe that was it, or there was another one, there was a mock letter saying that an effort for writing the Basic Text was under way, donï¿½t miss out, send you story in today. Nobody went for it, nobody sent in their story.

When Iï¿½d been in contact Jimmy Kinnon, and several other people, maybe, but mainly Jimmy, and I wasnï¿½t satisfied with my answers. I mean I actually reached the point where, together with another member, Iï¿½d sit down and write the letters saying like, where, if there is a group conscious, where is it, where does it live, what is itï¿½s name, does it have a phone number, does it have a mailing address? I was just short of being insulting, like, what in hell is going on? Because I was getting dodges on the telephone. I kept asking, and re-asking the same kinds of questions over about eight pages, and guess what, I got back a post card. A nice post card. It said, okay kid, things are fine, keep the faith baby, like, you know, I think sometimes people in World Service just think they are dealing with little children, and with my back ground and all, you know, somehow I just happened to be on this Delta flying west for the World convention you know, coincidentally of course.

You know, they were like knocked back that somebody was there from the east coast, me and Tommy B., that we actually flew in for the world convention. They kept expecting that we flew in to visit family or out there on business or why are you here? For the convention? They would yell out across the room, ï¿½Hey, there is somebody here for the convention all the way from Georgia!ï¿½ And the next thing, was, there I am at the World Convention, at the Jack Tar, in San Francisco, walking around, just enormous numbers of possibly clean addicts who still looked pretty weird and a little bit street-hard, but nevertheless I had every reason to suppose they were clean, whatever stage of recovery they might be in. And there wasnï¿½t much on the program that year about the Basic Text of Narcotics Anonymous. And there wasnï¿½t much in the little display room about where the early meetings were held, who was working on our little book, and I literally went through about a dozen people saying things like, nice weather, itï¿½s really pretty out here, whoï¿½s working on our book?

You know, itï¿½s like, I had to begin with a couple of lame lead sentences and then Iï¿½d immediately get to that other sentence, and then it was simple navigation, you know, theyï¿½d say like, go over there, and Iï¿½d go over there, and theyï¿½d say go over there, and Iï¿½d go over there. And I kept zinging back, homing in on the registration desk. They could have just told me at the gate. Thatï¿½s where I wound up. And within about five minutes I met Jack Whaley, Jimmy Kinnon and Greg Pierce, Bob Barrett and Chuck Skinner and all these guys hanging around this desk. That was in a way, a big way, effectively world services. I didnï¿½t meet any Magdalanos that time, and there were other people around, as far as the people who were active at that point and I can still recall the names that played a significant major roll, like Jimmy really did do some early work, Jimmy really did pick up the fire, and carry the banner after the early efforts of NA on the east died out, and did manage to be there and sit there with that one shuddering newcomer and not give up. And off, on, maybe, maybe he did it because he is a great man, maybe it was an ego trip. It donï¿½t much matter how he did it, and that does count for something here as elsewhere and there had been early efforts in literature, the White Book and so on. It just seemed like they all took for ever. A lot of time passed before progress started happening, so anyway, Iï¿½m asking these people, ï¿½Whoï¿½s working our book?ï¿½ When Iï¿½m still getting zinged but the space across which Iï¿½m getting zinged is getting shorter and then I meet ole Greg, and I mean that was the weirdest thing, because now Iï¿½m meeting an NA old-timer who is young, a young NA old timer who is also the chairman of the Board of Trusteeï¿½s. And like on the outside Iï¿½m going, yup, yup, and on the inside Iï¿½m going, oh goody! You know? I wasnï¿½t being very indirect, I mean I was asking pretty straight forward questions for me, not very objective at all. Iï¿½m making jokes, I get criticized for being objective and indirect and all that, and really I got knocked back for asking so hard that I guess I still am in difficult situations where Iï¿½m trying to be nice and then I wind up being criticized for being indirect and objective when really it my only way of handling very difficult situations, so Iï¿½ll stop laughing at them and wasting all this time and get back to this story, and I do love them, but itï¿½s hard, butï¿½

So me and Greg is talking and the funniest thing happens is that I stopped zinging because he had to go do something so I tagged along and I had to do something and was amazed to find him tagging along? Wait a minute, heï¿½s supposed to be real busy and say yeah, check with me later, go see so and so. Suddenly, I ainï¿½t zinging - plus weï¿½re talking about mutual interests and so like I was, whatever it was, check on my luggage or something like that I hadnï¿½t really had to do it. And when it got done, I went wherever he was going and we wound up going around the building and somehow we werenï¿½t too good at catching on that day but the inevitable happened. We went up to his room and he pulled out some cases with some documents in it and started going through paperwork like we were going through till five-thirty last night, and see? Once an addict, always an addict, right? Love that paper work. I liked it because I thought it was cool stuff but I also thought about members back home because see, theyï¿½re had no way of going to San Francisco themselves and this was the way to take home something and give pieces of it away and let them know that it was really happening and because without the evidence in those days, I mean a photo copy was a valuable instrument because it was a way to let the people back home get encouragement and hope and itï¿½s really happening and here look at this and look at that and let them know the whole goddamn thing was real because back then, you know, youï¿½d hear things about the sister fellowship thinking itï¿½s bigger than we are and better off and more meetings and all that, I mean it was hell back then and we needed the evidence bad, they did know for real that our program worked, that our Traditions meant something that the Twelve Steps were valid principles of recovery as practiced by NA members in NA meetings. I mean all that of, by, for, NA stuff, a lot of that has become reality in the last ten or fifteen years. It didnï¿½t come easy, it took low blows, you know, within the fellowship and from external forces, and I guess whatï¿½s happening is like itï¿½s easier to come out front and just talk about this because now, youï¿½re all Narcotics Anonymous. Okay?

The days in which we got clean ten percent of the room might be real NA members so we had to watch our step, think about that, I mean it was fucked! and it was hard to do something about it, and there was no way to judge them, there was no way even if I got to talk to you or you or you or spend time with you I couldnï¿½t really tell because youï¿½d lie to me, you probably wouldnï¿½t even half know. You might act and talk and express things to where youï¿½re not and then ten years later here you still are and then there are a lot of people that seem like theyï¿½re NA members but they wouldnï¿½t do nothing for the fellowship they were supposed to love and care about so much. Let somebody else do it was their philosophy, you know one of the best tributes to the disease of addiction something like eight or nine years ago and this is the first time I had a place where I could pass on that material by request because of people asking for it so it might have been never, but it wasnï¿½t it was today, thank you.

Iï¿½m an addict from Memphis, my name is Joseph. Hi yaï¿½ll, I donï¿½t really know whatï¿½s going on, I always walk in on Bo it seems like and I can never figure out whatï¿½s going on but, of course my mind picked up on the sons a bitches, and thieves and assholes that are around the program, thatï¿½s certainly true.

I sometimes get caught up in the negative and isnï¿½t and whoï¿½s not doing what and first one thing then the other but I take it that from what Ed told me that we were kinda sharing about how some of us got involved in how the book was born and got evolved that and to add to what Bo said, and what Jim said, is I got clean in June of 79. I got clean over the phone, there was no Narcotics Anonymous in Memphis and I found the number of the World Service Office in the public library there, it was in Sun Valley, so I called collect and talked to Jimmy Kinnon, one of the co-founders and called collect every day for a while and he sent literature and said start meetings and donï¿½t do any dope and try to care about yourself and everybody else and give hugs unconditionally and that was in June of 79. And then he sent a flyer about the World Convention that was coming up in Atlanta that year. He said somehow you got to get down there and meet some of these other folks, that he wouldnï¿½t be there but Bo would be there and Greg and Chuck Skinner and so like, Bo, when he went to San Francisco a couple of years before that, I walked in and it looked - whatever the term used - looked pretty street rough. People were all around that hotel in Atlanta and they were hugging and laying on the floor and it was pretty, thatï¿½s the first clean addicts Iï¿½d been around and I wasnï¿½t sure these people were clean, so I spent a lot of my time up in the room pacing around.

At that time I used nicotine, so I inhaled a few packs of nicotine and just wondered what the hell was going on, somebodyï¿½d hug you and they wouldnï¿½t let go of you and Iï¿½d go back up to my room and freakout. I didnï¿½t know what Iï¿½d gotten myself into, but I roamed around and found Bo and found Greg and sit back and listened, I asked about the same questions and they asked my how long Iï¿½d been clean about 3 or 4 years? I didnï¿½t say anything I just said yeah, of course it had only been a couple months at that time but I didnï¿½t want to feel not a part of or that these guys wouldnï¿½t talk to me and wouldnï¿½t share with me, I just kinda went along with it.

Down there Iï¿½d heard about the book being talked about and that these fellows were working on it and that was where I wanted to get involved because there was no literature, just these five pamphlets and the little white book that was in the starter kit at that time in 79. I still today donï¿½t do very well transferring my thoughts in to paper but I knew I could help out and be a part of somehow by just being there and I was told about the first World Literature Conference that was coming up a few months later that was coming up in Kansas? Up in Kansas. Iï¿½d arranged for Bo to come through Memphis to pick me up and go up there, I didnï¿½tï¿½ know what it was going to be about and on the way talked about a lot of things and we talked about we were going to write this we book and we got up there and I like to fool with the copy machine and go out and get people food and clean up ashtrays and things like that. Thatï¿½s the kind of role that I could do in my diseased mind and my emotional debilitating self and they kept talking about for days about this we book we were going to write and all this information that Greg had and other people had getting piles, and the copy machine was running and I couldnï¿½t figure out how they were going to get all this material in a small book and it went on and on and on and what I finally figured out after that convention was that the We book, is that, we, together, and not small, but I never asked.

Thatï¿½s where I was, but about this clean time and about this we book we were going to have and how small it was going to be so I just kind of hung around and did what I could and volunteered and at the end of that World Literature Conference, the first one, they were going to set up a time to have the next one and of course me being the assertive self good controlling addict that I was, I wanted to volunteer Memphis and so I did of course I was the only clean member in Memphis. But things worked out, we had that Literature Conference at the, the Grey Book came out of, is that correct Bo? If I remember way back then, whatï¿½s that, eleven years? Yeah, a year and a half after Wichita, and ended up being about a eight or ten day conference and then people left and people like Jim and others came back and Bo stayed on and we finally, I think Boï¿½s got all the tapes of that whole, we taped the whole conference that year and all the group conscious and like he says he wanted to know what the address was of the group conscious was and what the phone was and at that conference we really started to develop what, in our mind, what was spiritually attuned to what we thought group conscious was is writing in committee and writing in groups and letting everybody who wanted to be a part of and not limiting anyoneï¿½s participating for any reason and it seemed to work, I think that Grey book came out it was, we mailed it, I think we printed twelve hundred of them and we didnï¿½t have that many addresses of groups and areas and individual members around the country. I think we had a total of about seven hundred addresses of addicts or groups or churches that NA used to be at all around the world. How many? 663? Okay. Close, and we mailed them out and got a lot of them back and Jim took a lot of pictures of that Conference I donï¿½t know if heï¿½s got a set of them but I brought a set of them with me. Itï¿½s pretty interesting seeing all these addicts sitting around and laying around.

There also a few in the pictures that arenï¿½t with us today, Roger T, who has since died of AIDS, was a big help. He typed about ten days straight without rest, he could type about hundred and forty words a minute accurately and he was a member of the other fellowship. He just happened to be at the State University where we had the Conference and wandered into it and became addicted to NA and recovery and writing the book and his thing was typing and so he played a big part in this book being written and developed. And there were others, Gina H from Nashville, who is not here today thatï¿½s since died of AIDS also. She was one of the early members of NA in Tennessee. I think with fourteen years clean she died, and one of the phrases that made it through all the processes of the book that I really liked, was part of her words, was everything is subject to revision especially what we know of the truth and that continues to be the true for me of what changes of what I think today or what I thought three months ago or three years ago and about myself about life about recovery about other addicts about the world and how I used and live the steps in my life today and try to apply the principles on a moment to moment basis, and like Bo said, I too have a difficult time today, seems like more difficult today than the past in dealing with personalities within the fellowship, particularly when it comes to our literature and the Basic Text as it is today and the other literature thatï¿½s coming out and such as that is whatï¿½s going on. So Iï¿½ve been involved and all my recovery has been in Narcotics Anonymous since June of 79 and Iï¿½ve started meetings and Iï¿½ve shared and do what the next thing is to do. I guess thatï¿½s all I have to put it in a little nut shell. Thanks a lot.

Hi, family. Iï¿½m Motorcycle Ed, and Iï¿½m an addict. You know that one of the things that Joe has opened up the door is the different talents, it was so amazing to just show up at one of the conferences, my self worth was at the level that what basically I could do was tote tables and give back rubs and I believe at the second one they, that I showed up at the real treat for me was getting to do what all the other people had got to do in kindergarten that I didnï¿½t get to do cause I didnï¿½t get to go to kindergarten was little bitty scissors cut up little pieces of paper and get to paste stick them on the back and paste it on another piece of paper and the kid in me just went berserk, you know, hot diggedy doggy dam! Twelve hours of this, you know, itï¿½s like somebodyï¿½d walk up and start rubbing your back and all this and one of the things that did happen in Memphis was, how long was the conversation with the phone call? Two calls totaling over nine hours and a little gal sitting there and they take turns typing, you know, one person would hold the phone to their ear and they would type and another person would rub their back so they wouldnï¿½t cramp up and just over and over and over times again the selflessness.

People said how did you learn to give like you give and it was through the conferences and watching time after time after time and you know, just stepping out thinking you know, well, I really donï¿½t have the money to go, but Iï¿½m fucking going anyway and called the boss up and said I got to have two weeks off next week and if you want to fire me you can. And the boss saying, okay, you can go, come back when you get back in town, come back to work. Alright, and leave running and you know the encompassing the coming to believe process you know where the phrase of this is one family goes to the bone. You break the bread and you cry and you suffer and you sit and wonder why and how and as Bo mentioned why did they say that or you know, why did they do that and you know, donï¿½t they love NA and yes, maybe they do and you try to be open minded and all that stuff because really I got tired of being run out of the institutions because I didnï¿½t have the proper credentials. It was like well, weï¿½ll go get some tell me I canï¿½t get it, youï¿½re in trouble.

I got tired of seeing people dying for lack of hope, you know come in and try it and we offer them a white book and this was there more? Well, if you got time to listen we can talk to you and then the joy of getting the chance to, yeah thereï¿½s a little bit more over here and pull out a book and give it to them and watch the life come back and to some people thatï¿½s not valuable but to me it is. Weï¿½re going go on a little bit more about the conferences and maybe share some overcoming, I know we got this, if you havenï¿½t gotten in the room at one thirty maybe after this you can go there and look at some of the stuff and it will tie it too, there is some of it laying up here and you know because it is hard to conceive sometimes why do I get tears in my eyes when I see this flyer? Five years worth, thatï¿½s why and the other people this flyer said yeah, okay big deal, so they didnï¿½t know how to do it artistically then. Which ever one of the gentlemen wanted to go next?

My name is Greg and Iï¿½m an addict, and I donï¿½t know. I look around and weï¿½re all a little teary eyed, maybe thatï¿½s from a lack of sleep - weï¿½ve been there before. For me, part of what was such a big impact for me, you know, this is the first time we all sat down together in years. This is certainly the first time the four of us, the five of us have ever done this and thatï¿½s amazing because you see we were really part of each others lives for a long time and I think that some of that stuff is the stuff that never gets talked about, that it wasnï¿½t just work, it was sharing each others lives. We used to ride busses across the country.

Joseph visited me in Oregon on a Greyhound, twice from Memphis. I visited Joseph in Memphis on a Greyhound then swung up and rode from Memphis to Pittsburg and Jim picked me up and went to the farm and went to Warren for the Lit Conference and then, Oh, we went, drove across Pennsylvania to New Jersey so I could talk at the East Coast then we came back and went to Warren for the Lit Conference and somewhere in the middle of that we went up to start the Ohio region, I mean we lived with each other this was not just about getting together to put together a book.

One of the things, an awareness that Iï¿½ve come about really in the last month or two, one of the things that is very real, the process is part of the magic. The only way we could learn about recovery, particularly the folks who are here, was through involvement in service. There wasnï¿½t any place to go. There werenï¿½t any old-timers. Particularly in the east. And the way you learned about living clean was by getting involved in service and traveling from Ohio to Georgia on a wing and a prayer and putting up with some crazy - I mean we put them in the back of the truck that didnï¿½t run and drove them to the airport.

I remember, you know, or traveling to here or there or wherever and showing up and becoming part of the process and the process and the process was about stretching the limits of knowledge of recovery. I really believe when people started discussing the Basic Text, itï¿½s obsolete because the awareness is grown and the awareness grew. A lot of, I believe the way NA is perceived today grows right out of the process of the Basic Text and discussions, itï¿½s obsolete now, the awareness of recovery and the fellowship in NA has moved past the Basic Text. Itï¿½s one of the reasons we originally talked about, never wanting anything that became a, you know, ï¿½This is the Bible!ï¿½ sort of thing. We wanted something that would be reviewed every five years and updated as our understanding and awareness recovery grew.

I think the actual process started, in this attempt, in San Francisco, the things that led up to that, the writing letters, the looking to people, encouraging people the phone calls and everything else, those were all setting the stage. I really believe the actual process started in San Francisco in 1777 at the 7th World Convention. And it grew from there. I want to read a letter that I think is real indicative of, that Bo sent me. In December of 1977, this follows when we first met at the World Convention in San Francisco, Bo came down with me and spent a few days at the house, several of you have done that. I visited the fellowship in Marietta. Iï¿½d been in a situation where I was in Washington, you see, I used to do triangle flights. I started traveling in NA in 1976 wherever there was some groups and when I did some business, what Iï¿½d do - I donï¿½t think you can do it any more - they used to be able to tack on another leg for like 30 or 40 dollars. So if I was doing business or something from LA to Washington, what I would maybe, in fact this is a real trip that happened. Instead of flying, I had business in well, Bethesda actually, just outside of Washington. What I did was fly from LA to Washington, go to an NA meeting, meet an NA member, have them drive me to Washington, take care of my business, run around Pennsylvania for a couple of days, end up back in Philadelphia and then fly to Atlanta and then back to LA.

Or another trip was, there was one I was setting up a plant in Toronto and I flew from LA, there was a stop, there was a change of planes in Chicago so I stayed overnight and went to a meeting in Chicago in 77, had pizza and went on to Toronto and on the way back I worked it out where I could stop in Wichita and visit with some of those folks on my way back to LA and that was the way I traveled. Iï¿½d almost built that in and for very little money you could add a leg to a flight and I was traveling and so on one of those trips, coincidentally, Bo chuckles about it and says, ï¿½Coincidentally two months later Greg dropped in on my local meeting.ï¿½ and you know, but thatï¿½s the way. I mean, that was not anything bizarre. Thatï¿½s a description of the nature of the relationship. We participated in each others lives to a much greater degree than we have since, you know, we were part of each other, and I was struck to, on how well we complimented each other because we all got different strengths.

I could not have done what Joseph or Bo or Jim did. Bo could not have done what Joseph or I or Jim did, Joseph could not have done what Bo or I or Jim did, Jim could not have done what Bo or I or Joseph did we each had our own strengths, and thatï¿½s something really. We havenï¿½t, I donï¿½t think we ever really looked at, but itï¿½s true, itï¿½s really true. I donï¿½t really know what they really are, but they were very real.

Anyway after that trip, and when Iï¿½d dropped in and I donï¿½t know, sometime in 77, hereï¿½s the letter, and I think the letter really speaks to some of the spirit of the Basic Text of the process. I also think NA grew as much from the process as it did from the product see, because an example of that, now Jim mentioned coming down to Atlanta in 1977, and then he went back, there really wasnï¿½t any NA, he started an NA meeting. In 1980 there was like one or two meetings. In 1981 there were one hundred meetings in Ohio. You know, thatï¿½s the sort of things that happened and that was because the process and because of the awareness. The moving to a higher level of conscious because of awareness that took place in the process.

Dear Greg, Well we all wear glasses now, do you wear glasses? Did any of us wear glasses before? My first pair of glasses! I donï¿½t think any of us wore glasses, that was like one of those weird a, yeah, nun of us needed to we all have to now. I donï¿½t know. That was one of those weird things, well I can remember at Warren, the 4th the 5th, whatever, World Lit Conference, the 5th, one of the things that struck me was the percentage of people with light colored eyes, I donï¿½t know why that struck me, but there was something there. Anyway

Dear Greg,

Guess who bought a typewriter? I hope you have a nice Christmas, this is December 16th 1977, please say hi to Lois and the baby, hope to see you next year, Iï¿½ve gotten off to a rolling start with the writing. Iï¿½ve started umpteen pamphlets and a few notes for the NA book. My friends here know of my efforts and I hope to get a few of them together real soon for input and discussion. Hopefully this will take place here and elsewhere. Thank God itï¿½s begun. At this point I feel we have to involve as many as possible to make sure we cover all points of view. Involving people might struggle the effort and controversy but I really trust the spirit and believe weï¿½d be poor servants if we leave them out.

Somehow if we could get our best minds working on this in harmony I just know it would strengthen the gut of the program. In my thinking it has occurred to me what weï¿½re up against, is NA a cure for addiction, how to help doctors treat or react to addiction.

We would hate to see any valid point of view left out, also I would hate to see any great length of time elapse without some progress. Please write to me, my friend.

Your friend,

I didnï¿½t get to attend the first World Lit Conference in 79, that and Iï¿½m sure Bo will talk more about that, or somebody, that was about planning the plan. We always planed from a, you always plan the work and work the plan process. That was a rule of thumb. You plan the work and then you work the plan and you review the plan, you probably do it over 2 or 3 times. You plan the work and work the plan and Wichita was about developing the Literature process, writing the directions, stuff that had never been tried before, I can remember a lot of phone calls and a lot of letters.

We were going now what the hell should we do next? We checked things out with each other we were in real close communication. I think it really began for me in Wichita, in Lincoln, after the 10th World Convention in Wichita. Kermit brought a mug from that convention; heï¿½s sitting in the room over there. The following week was the second World Lit Conference just a state away. We didnï¿½t think nothing about it ï¿½S just a state away from the 10th World Convention was the second World Lit Conference and thatï¿½s where the work on the book began.

Thereï¿½d been writing before that, thereï¿½d been input put in, thereï¿½d been a number of people who sent stuff in. There was old stuff drug out of boxes and closets and other peopleï¿½s closets. From World Service office and wherever. There was these stacks of paper and I didnï¿½t know what to do with it. Some of the things that happened at that Lit Conference, we talked about what had happened before that, the history up till then and that would be a very interesting thing. That tape exists.

We made a decision and one of the basic premises we worked on the text from was that all the significant points that needed to be included in the Basic Text, were included in an outline called the White Booklet. The White Booklet would serve as the outline for the Basic Text. We actually wrote a different outline, and we cut up material.

Ed was talking about the 12 hour sessions with the scissors. What he didnï¿½t tell you was when you get done with the twelve hours of scissors you go somewhere and crash for an hour or two and you come back and do it again. You sit in a session with everybody involved doing all these different tasks and you read and people cry and you can feel something happening, you can feel the process, you can participate in the process.

I want to read a little bit of that first cut and paste. I donï¿½t know how much but it started out

As addicts we have a common bond, we have all felt pain, we felt the numbness, gnawing inadequacy, aching loneliness, separateness from our fellows and feelings of uselessness and self pity.

Weï¿½ve surly had enough of self-destruction.

Somehow in a moment of clarity we were able to look at the whole scene and all its insanity. We stopped fighting and something inside of us said no more.

We lacked real information on what addiction is, what recovery could mean to us. We were in a poor position to judge whether or not we were addicts, each of us faced a dilemma.

We remember going through a lot of pain and despair before considering the possibility the possible connection between drugs and misery.

Eventually drugs ceased to make us feel good.

We tottered on the brink of self-destruction.

All our attempts to stay clean failed.

In our isolation we had lost the things in our lives that were most important to us. We lost all hope and freedom.

We were sick and tired of being sick and tired.

From the start, the theme of NA meetings was recovery.

We all knew how to use drugs.

We knew the effect they had on us.

The primary thing we were interested in was how to stay clean, how to cope with life without drugs. How to handle unpleasant feelings and emotions, in other words, how to recover.

This is why we suggest attending meetings, the same way we used drugs, as often as possible.

Going to NA meetings provides a period of time where we could talk to other addicts about the nature of our addiction, the addict and recovery. We learn weï¿½re not alone.

Few of us set out to become addicts, it seems that we were born that way or at some point in our using crossed an invisible line in to addiction expressing itself in our obsessions, compulsions and preoccupations.

Our addiction overrides reason, experience and perception.

We can see a little of our self in every addict.

Addicts are scared; they feel they must be something they are not. They canï¿½t stand the future, they canï¿½t stand the past and they canï¿½t stand still.

It is the addictï¿½s nature to perceive and precipitate crisis, adopt a style of living from crisis to crisis.

Many of us are dependant upon people to carry us emotionally through life, we are often disappointed and hurt when such contacts have other interests, friends and loved ones.

Addiction is a disease not a moral issue.

The addict reacts to drugs in a distorted behavior and compulsively seeks more.

The addict is past the point of no return and must have help in order to gain a normal life without drugs.

I can remember the first time I heard that read, which was at the close at the Lincoln Lit Conference and there were fifty people there crying because, you see, this was real. This had some cohesiveness. This was the beginnings for a book, you could touch it, you could hear it, you could see it, you could read it, it was real. Before that it may have been just stacks of paper, bits and pieces that didnï¿½t make any sense. Maybe the biggest thing that happened for me in Lincoln was that I began to believe that it could work. I think Iï¿½ll cut it off there and let other people share about those first couple Lit Conferences. The one after Lincoln was Memphis and maybe this go round should be through Memphis.

Hi, Iï¿½m Jim and Iï¿½m an addict. Maybe it should be through Memphis, What I feel like is that Memphis is where I really got started, where I really got involved that first time. When I come to some thing like this Iï¿½ve a tendency to stand up here and do my best to put me back there and say well how did you feel? Okay? Probably less so now then five, six years ago. How I would have felt back there is hey, lets get at it.

I want to hear about this history right now, all of it. So put it down, so tell me point by point what happened. Letï¿½s not any more of this cosmic bullshit, letï¿½s hear it. I think we learned about three things in our literature committee experience as a fellowship, if we communicate and are inclusive, if we let everybody know whatï¿½s going on and weï¿½re willing to take everybody in, something really special can happen, and that was what happened, Iï¿½d seen that and wouldnï¿½t go, but then somebody came out with one that was good enough for me, these guys finally stumbled along and came up with one good enough for my standards. They discovered that there was something called an offset press machine and then could I get on a plane? Iï¿½d read this and hammered everyone around me to do it and hadnï¿½t done it myself and on the plane down there, I did it: wrote my story. That was the first time I wrote anything. I was harangued, I was challenged into participating, I wasnï¿½t kept away, I wasnï¿½t excluded, I was included, thatï¿½s really important. I had something to offer.

I think spirit of recovery picks the very sickest, the most objectionable of us to share some of the deepest parts of the message, to teach the rest of us about anonymity so if we need the message we ignore the messenger, we donï¿½t consider the vehicle, but whatï¿½s being carried in it and Iï¿½m pretty objectionable. Iï¿½m pretty pedantic, Iï¿½m pretty hard, itï¿½s hard to hear what I have to say because of who I am. Because of how I act. Anyway I think that we learn about anonymity, not let that get in our way. I think we learn that if the spiritual purpose of a project is right the talent and the money is always going to be there. Always. If we do something for NA, and our purpose is right, everything that we need is going to be there. What we did was acceptable to the fellowship, it got approved by the fellowship because we were inclusive we practiced functional anonymity and the fellowship did it, we didnï¿½t do it, weï¿½re nothing, we donï¿½t mean a dam thing. The fellowship wrote the book. We didnï¿½t write the book and donï¿½t every accuse me of being part of writing any book because I didnï¿½t you did. The third thing is that the biggest part of that which is what happened among us was much more than the sum of our talents. You couldnï¿½t take our credentials, everybody that ever participated in it and add those up and say that this could have been the result of that, it couldnï¿½t have been possible. There was something more that happened. Now Iï¿½ll get cosmic.

I sat down after 18 hours of no sleep, sitting in a group and I saw my hand move without any effort of my own. I even questioned that. Something happens. Memphis, I went down and Bo taught me how to work with him for about three days ahead of that and we delivered an order so we could get there and learn how to work together. It was great, he never got paid for it because he let us work on it. It was shit, Bo was done. But we went to Memphis and sat down and we had our first group conscience. I read this. I didnï¿½t know about five other people in the world who could read. It says addict in here. It doesnï¿½t say drug addict or alcoholic. It says recovery in here. We went around the room and introduced ourselves and everybody was different. I got angry and slammed my fist on the table - wanted to anyway.

Somebody had to be the son of a bitch to talk about getting the words right and because of my background and a lot of real sick shit about me I took that role, it was extremely important to me that the words were as very precise as they could be. Itï¿½s a good thing that there was somebody there like that. For the very first time in the world mankind addressed recovery from addiction. In the written form starting in Memphis.

Mankind addressed the topic of recovery from addiction for the very first time ever. No matter what else had been written with modifiers on it. I thought that was kind of important because I couldnï¿½t, when you said you were a drug addict I couldnï¿½t hear you. When you said you were an alcoholic I couldnï¿½t hear you. When you said you were powerless over a chemical I couldnï¿½t hear you. Because I knew that you didnï¿½t know. When you called recovery sobriety, and used the terms interchangeably I couldnï¿½t hear you because I knew you didnï¿½t know. I knew you didnï¿½t understand, I knew you couldnï¿½t understand. Its not that I rejected you, I didnï¿½t reject you, your recovery was just fine whatever you had was just fine it just wasnï¿½t recovery.

VI. Archive Search and Define Goals

The archive room was a bustle of activity and was left open for all waking hours. The podium was an open microphone on a subject line. There were several members that hardly ever left the archive room. The copiers were kept humming and many thousands of copies made. This was the place of many deep discussions of times past and things yet to come. Many hugs and tears were traded. This was a place for both the newcomer and the old timer alike. Planes were made for the next event as well as work to be done in the mean time.

In the course of this weekend a hotline call was taken at a members home while returning to get supplies. The person was picked up and taken to the hotel and stayed the weekend. A couple of years later when seen he was still clean.

Many members found it hard to leave. Two ladies from Michigan come to mind. They cried rivers of tears, they were two of the last to leave they just did not want to go home which was the case for most of us.

VII. The Trouble Starts

While the intent was read and many came in an attitude of service and giving some came to decent. For short time the microphone was used to discredit some and the effort. This in no means rained on any ones parade and did not dampen one spirit. It seemed as to be like water on a ducks back. It was there and then it was gone. Yet, looking back it is the first seed of disunity for the committee and its efforts. It would prove to grow and flourish.

A full set of the tapes from this event can be heard or down loaded at www.na-history.org

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