Posted by Chris.S on February 23, 19102 at 12:00:58:
Hi everyone .
Damn its good to be back on this site...I have though just spent the last hour or so doing my two fingered shuffle on the keyboard posting a message to the board only to discover when I hit the post message that my server had disconnected itself and either my previous has dissappeared somewhere in the hard drive when I reconnected or the message got sent...I know not..so if it arrives...it was meant to be , if not , I obviously had something to say that the gods of cyberspace deemed not fit for publication.......
I am really sad to see all of this none recovery related stuff being posted on the board..what is all the shit with Brittney and Lollita's and whatever else...can this stuff not be screened..?
Still was good to go through all the stuff that is relevent .
The NAWOL meeting over here has limped along for the last 6 months or so .The guys who I started the meeting off with have semmed to have lost interest or found other things to do that they feel are more important I guess .Still , we get one or two people coming in...the focus has seemed to change as a result..no longer talking about text and meanings , but more reading and discussion on bits of the text that people relate to .It did get to the stage where one week the meeting got down to one person and was on the point of closing..next week 11 pitched up...Guess its just meant to be .
The main text of the previous non posted message,or posted as the case may be , was that I was questioning the whole attitude of discontent that I percieve between NA members and so called structured service .
I can only than God that I am stuck on the other side of the planet and part of a small but growing fellowship where the most important thing is focussing on our primary purpose...carrying the message .It seems from this side that that aspect of NA is being lost , or that everyone seems to be more concerned with who is carrying the message more effectively..the simplicity that I have grown in NA learning about seems to be lost somewhere...If everyone was concentrating purely on the primary purpose , people wouldnt be worrying about what everyone else is doing , or what is going wrong...shit..it all seems such a waste of energy...how many addicts out there are not getting the message because of it.? I love reading the messages on the board that deal with recovery.but sometimes wonder if we havnt forgotten why we are here .
On a positive note for me anyway , God has been kind , I sold a book that has paid for registration and air and hotel for the World in Atlanta...I am damn lucky , but cant help feel in someway that there are a hell of a lot of people in the world who are missing out becuase there is no ways that the average person out here,and I suppose a lot of other countries, can even hope of getting there because of the costs...now maybe there is a topic for another day...take a world conference out to the world , not vice versa .I know that in the States you have a baseball world series..how can you have a world series when the rest of the world doesnt take part...?Think about it .
Love to all .
Chris .S